Hey everyone! I hope that you are having an awesome Saturday! I have been working on some great post for you all and I am really excited to finally share them with you all. However, I haven't been liking the format of my blog so far and I am really ready to vamp it up! I notice that although I do like the look of the site it's not me. I feel like as a blogger I should be putting out honest content while also displaying it on a page that fits my personality. I will be working on the format and will be changing a lot of things up and I am really excited for this. I hope that you guys will also enjoy the new format. I also, might be deleting some post so if you notice some are missing don't worry. I will be editing some of my post and putting them back. Thanks for sticking with me! Stay Golden!

Am I dating?

           What's up guys! I know I have been on a roll lately. I plan on keeping it up so you guys will keep having post to look forward to reading. Today I wanted to talk about dating. Yes I have dated before or as the kids call it "talk" to someone. I have found that I do not have much luck in this method, because after a month or even a few weeks we end up becoming bored with each other , or just he just ends up not texting me anymore :\ I use to take this pretty personal, but now I kind of just look at it as a given and it doesn't really bother me anymore. This is pretty sad to say, but is true. I have come to accept this, because I believe I have figured out why they choose not to keep responding to me, and do you wanna know why? I'll wait................It's because I let them know from the beginning where I stand. Don't get me wrong, I don't just come out and say "Hi, I'm Christiauna, but everyone calls me Chrissy and I am a virgin and plan on being one until I fall in love." I know this may scare guys off and I would not blame them for backing off a little, but I do try to take things slow and be honest with them.
         I try to stay honest with myself for the most part and I know that I could not just get with a guy and just give them my virginity that easily after I have waited all of these years. I am not trying to knock anyone that lost their virginity this way, because we are all different. I just know that personally I'm too emotional to be able to do that. This is with any aspects of my life. I have come to terms with this and I am pretty much use to this now.
          Honestly, dating just sometimes seems like a waste of time to me. Like, you spend all your time getting to know this one specific person just to find out that you don't vibe with them like how you thought you did, so now you wasted like a month of your life on one person you won't ever speak to again. You got to admit that sucks, which is probably why I don't to much care for it. My friends always encourage me to do it , but I'm just never into it like that. I just see better things I can be doing with my free time, especially now that I am in college; I don't have time to lose. I will talk to you lovebugs later. Stay Golden!

Is it really that serious though? (yes it is another post about my relationship views)

                I know y'all are no used to me posting back to back, but I decided that the only way for me to upload in a timely manner was to actually pre-type my post then save and upload them so that's what I am doing. Today, I want to speak about a matter that you all always hear me mention in my various post and that is my relationship status. I know what most of you are thinking and that is "Chrissy, we really don't care, and we are tired of hearing about this." And to this I say you might as well click off while your ahead. Over the past 4 years I have been single and tbh it has not started bothering me until as of lately. It is not the fact that I am single that bothers me, it's the fact that people believe that I am unhappy, because of my singleness. I have various friends tell me "Chrissy, you are always on edge because you need some.." (Let's use our imagination on what they say next). I even had one friend tell me I would probably end up having sex within the first 2 weeks of college. This of course got them cursed out and deep down my feelings were hurt. Many people I know say that I am too emotional, but if I'm being honest I could give less than 2 fucks what people think about my personality, because it is not changing and it is not going any damn where.
                 My problem with the whole relationship shit is that most of my friends have boyfriends, girlfriends or out having sex and talking to someone, which I do not have or am doing any of (I'm still a virgin for those who don't know :) ) Being a virgin is something I am actually really proud of and have not ever regretted at any point of my life. When my friends would say you need sex to make you feel better and relieve some of your stress my answer is how can you miss something you never had? I can't tell you how many times people have tried to make me feel bad about this and honestly no one could make me feel bad about it. I am happy with it and will continue to be satisfied with this until I find someone worth giving my virginity too.
                 A couple of weeks ago I had a friend tell me I wouldn't understand being in a relationship, because I have never been in one. I was furious with the statement at first, but then I realized why the hell should I care if others don't think I know about what being in "love" is like. I am only 18 years old and should not know much about life and I am learning with every step and move I make everyday. So, before you say someonone does not know about love remember that we all are on different journeys and all of them will lead us to love in a different way than others and that's okay. You do not have to rush to find the "one" or have sex because you don't want to be the outcast in your friend group , because it will all happen in due time. Also, don't ever let anyone make you feel bad about being "inexperienced" with love because we all are inexperienced in something and that is what makes us all unique in the first place. You should wake up and thank God everyday that you are alive, and that you are amazingly different then your neighbor, this does not make one better than the other, but gives us the diversity that we need in our society to keep it interesting and fun.
                 It took me awhile to realize that it is okay to be you and be creative, and unique in your own way. Don't let anyone, even your friends take that away from you, because in the end it is you that will lose out because you let them steal your joy. If they can't expect you for you , then they were never your friends to begin with and you should drop them like a bad habit. I have explained to my friends that I do not like those comments and that have stopped making them, because they realize it bothers me and they aren't going to get anywhere by making them because I am going to keep doing me no matter what they say. Your friends are meant to embrace who you are, not try to steal your shine; always remember this.
               My next post will probably be about dating so get ready for that one guys! I am really going to try to stay on top of this so make sure to check all of social media platforms to see when I have uploaded another treat for you all! My @ name for all of my accounts such as twitter, instagram, and snapchat and more is chrissycharisse. Stay Golden!

COLLEGE GIRL!!

       Once again I have to come back on here about some sad excuse about how I could not post on time. I think I am going to just dismiss the idea of even making schedules for my post, because when I constrict myself to a set schedule I never follow them.
         I believe that I do have a set excuse this time about why I could not upload in a timely manner and that is because I have officially started college!! I am attending the University of Alabama at Birmingham, and I am loving every minute of it! I am meeting many new people and just being in another environment in general is just refreshing and exciting. It makes me have a whole new outlook on life that I love.
         My university is pretty nice and most of the people here are pretty nice and chill. My classes are far apart and it really does suck, but it is not that bad when you get used to it. I was the most worried about my roommate situation and how I thought I would get along with my roommate and if I would like her or not but she is pretty chill and me, her and my other friend get along pretty good and I am so happy I do not have to worry about that situation like some do.
        I have not been to any parties on yet, but I am suppose to be going to 2 tonight, so we will see if that works out well and how much I really enjoy it. I have a cold right now, and currently can not breathe and I am very congested, so it may not be the best time of my life I have ever had, but I will try to make the most of it.
         I will be trying to keep up with my post and at least upload post at least 1 once a week just so you all can come on this journey with me and get to experience this along with me. Big things to come! Stay Golden!

Loving the SKIN I'm IN!! ✨

HI EVERYONE! How's your Saturday going? I'm just in an amazing mood and I just felt like it deserves a post! I'm really starting to feel beautiful for the first time in my life! I don't know why all of a sudden I feel this way because it's not like I have changed that much but I just feel empowered. Over the last few months I was going through a pretty rocky stage of my life and didn't really know where I was going. But now after graduating high school a little over a week ago (yes I made it y'all!) and finally making up my mind on my major I just feel really excited. I feel as though I'm a force to be messed with and it's a really satisfying feeling. Also, I'm just really starting to embrace my blackness. Now I have never in my life hated being black at all , but I never thought of it really being all that special either. It was just something I always was and will always be. I recently just started feeling more connected and it makes me so proud of me and who I am! I just feel beautiful! I use to hate saying that because I would feel like people would judge me and knock me down, but I really don't dare what people think anymore! And it's so freeing! I hope everyone gets to feel this way about themselves because it's an awesome and joyful experience. I love all of you and I will be having another makeup review post coming up so be on the look out for it! STAY GOLDEN! 💛✨

Random

Hey everyone! I just wanted to remind you guys of my snapchat, Twitter and Instagram information and it's all @ chrissycharisse! Please make sure you follow me and keep up with me! ❤️ Stay GOLDEN 💛

Depression 😔

Hey guys! I know it has been a long time since I have updated , but as you know it's my senior year in high school and I'm totally swamped with everything! But I decided to post today just to let you all know how I have been feeling recently. I have been going through a lot lately and just feel like you all need an update. I have had a job the past few months at a local hospital and it drained the mess out of me. I enjoyed all of the learning I was exposed to but I would be so exhausted when I would get home at 10 after having been at school for 8 hours. Then, I started to find myself struggling with my confidence more and more and it started to affect how I viewed my friendships and how much were they really worth to me. I started to feel I was giving more into each friendship than the others and I started to get very fustrated by this and very disappointed. I decided to take a break from my friends and started to evaluate what I really wanted out of life. I found myself many nights crying myself to sleep and just being unhappy. Then, I had one recent from the past pop back up into my life and I started to feel like having friends weren't so bad. She helped me gain the confidence I needed to actually confront my other friends. But too my disappointed it was too late. They already had moved on and continued their lives and pretty much gave up on their friendships with me. I can not explain the incredible sorrow I felt when I this happens to me. All I could think about was that this is suppose to be one of the best times of my life and I'm dealing with this. I cried everyday when I got home from school and just wanted to stay home everyday and not have to go to school and put up a front, but I did since I was so ready to just graduate. It was so hard seeing their faces everyday because of how hurt I really was. I talked to each of them and I felt like we had got some place but I still found and am still finding myself excluded from various activities that involve the whole group. I just felt alone and I don't think none of them have truly experienced that but I can't speak for everyone. More than anything I was dissapointed and still kind of hurt by how my best friend handled the situation k just felt and still feel maybe she could stand up for me and they may listen but she does not want to get involved. Apart of me understands this but the other believes that my best friend would want to help , but I know nothing anymore. I am sharing this today because, I want to let you all know it's OKAY to be confused and alone. We all go through this in life and it's normal. Sometimes it is need in order for us to find our way in this life. And I'm just starting to come to terms with this myself. Of course I don't want to lose my whole circle of friends , but at the same time if God has other plans for me I will follow them. I know that the road to happiness is through Him and I am willing to make the rough journey for Him. Even though I still have hurt feelings,sorrow, and disappointment. I am able to say that my God is an AWESOME GOD! And he loves me no matter what and I will never stop loving him! I know he will keep blessing me and guiding me through this journey and many other journeys in my life. He gives me nothing I can't handle so he will definelty make a way. No one can steal your joy! And I am declaring today that I will be happy and live for Him  and let my joy show and shine for everyone and anyone who is near me. The storm is not over and I can't wait to see what else is in store. Just make sure that you keep your faith and you will prosper! Thanks you guys for supporting me! And as always STAY GOLDEN!